The Pursuit

Smile…
Keep your head up…
This is a picture I must maintain at all cost
I must keep my weight down and my faith must not be lost
I am black, I am proud
I'm going to be the command and I'm going to stay sound
I must do what is expected and do not crack under pressure
I'm gonna - scratch that, I am going to do my best, under any measure
Perfect my English, walk proud with grace
Do everything that's expected of me, even if my individuality I have to erase…
If I make one mistake
I'm gonna look outta place
DAMN, I said outta, it suppose to be "out of"
WAIT! I said gonna, it's suppose to be "going to"
I can't let my… no, NO, NO! It's cannot, not can't!
Now I said quadruple negatives… wait… AH SHIT!
Now I'm not rhyming with my timing, I don't understand it
And I'm cussing again, no wait, the proper term is foul language.
Is this even a poem anymore? I can't tell…
I'm not perfect… am I going to hell…?

I really can't stand up to the image I'm pursuing, because it's a lie
so I somewhat give up of being perfect in everyone's eyes.
I accepted that my flaws are really a work in progress
and I will accept anyone who can accept my process
of turning my thoughts into reality by working on my mental
vision of me, the one thing in this world that's going to be instrumental
to my pursuit of not perfection, but mastery of myself
because this is the only thing that is worth my wealth and health
This body is my canvas, the mind is the paint and ink
the thought process and my soul are in sync
and with this canvas, I'll express how I wanna be address
and how I wanna be address is not perfection, but my name
and my name is powerful, my name is beautiful
my name is alive and wonderful
my name is glory to the high, glory to my faith
and my visions are nothing by the reception we both talk thought via love
So… I'll…

Smile…
Keep my head up
This is a picture I must maintain at all cost
I must keep my weight down and my faith must not be lost
I am black and I am proud
I'm going to be the command and I'm going to stay sound
I am going to do what is expected and will not crack under pressure
I'm gonna, scratch that, I am going to do my best under any measure
Perfect my creatitiy, walk proud with grace…
but not at the cost of my indivuality, because that would be a mistake.

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